♥ Sunday, March 23, 2008
I can dont be jealous , dont ask too much , too naggy towards you.
It'll only happen if i dont love you at all.
But i do.
When u're tired and sleepy , not happy that ur mom asked u to be home at 6.
I tried comforting u.
I tried to hug you.
You pushed me away and said " yeah lah Bodoh "
I tolerated.. & tolerated.
In the end i put aside everything and hugged u.
I love you , i had to tolerate.
You said u prefer talking to God.
I understand.
Cause u're a Christian.
You said i wont understand if u told me.
I tolerated.. again.
You said i keep bugging you with stuffs about me and other ppl.
I wondered.
Isnt sharing troubles a neccessary part between couples?
In the end i shelved that thought.
I hugged u , kissing u softly on your cheeks.
You scolded me knn.
I was pissed.
But i tolerated.. again.
I told you not to scold me tat again.
The next dae , u did it again.
I tolerated.. again.
In the end i still hug u to sleep on the bus.
I felt happy.
Shortlived.
You woke up and gave me that nasty look.
I was trying to hug u and tried to cheer u up when u're that sleepy.
I tolerated again..
You told me.
" im sleepy , see my bed i wanna sleep"
We asked u why.
You replied " Tonn-ed last night calling my gan di "
I paused and thought.
Isnt she suppsoed to call me rather than another guy?
I tolerated.. again.
In the end , i hugged you when u leaned on the wall at the TB platform.
I asked u , go back sleep early.
You replied , unbelievebly.
" not so early , i need to call my gan di "
I PAUSED and THOUGHT.
she've been calling him for quite some time.
I tolerated.. yet again..
I hugged you , kissing ur lips.
The train came.
You shrugged me off and faced the train.
Everything's changed. Since 14o3
I've been tolerating.
But you?
You're just happy with ur phone with u.
You're not changing even though so much things happened.
& in the end , ppl will just say its my fault.
Particularly guys are in the fault all the time.
I tried my best to make u happy.
I tolerated.
I gave way.
I smiled. ( fake)
I love you since the very first day.
But everything is not the same any more.
You dont even care for ur boyfriend.
Yes im envious of Meiling and Wilson.
cause they're so LOVING.
WE?
we're totally like STRANGERS.
Even though i tried my best to close up the gap btwn us.
Im tired.. very .. but i still try to go on.
Until u , removed everything about me from ur friendster/blog/msn.
This one way relationship.. is almost sinking to the btm..
I really tried my best..
Its not that i honged.
I am tiongxim towards u.
But after so much and so much..
I
loved you
Ma High ;
Pa Fly
Ven.